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April 9, 1912

April 9, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Tomorrow is my father’s birthday and this afternoon, my Grandfather let me send my own telegram. I wrote it out myself but when we got to the telegraph office then he said that maybe we should write it out again, not because my handwriting was bad but because the telegraph man wasn’t used to reading it and Grandfather said that I could also put the telegram I wrote into an envelope and send it to my father so he could see the message in my own handwriting, so we did that too. I also made a beautiful pen wiper for him. Aunt Tillie taught me how. You put four nails in a used-up spool of thread and then you wrap yarn around the nails and keep pulling it through the hole in the spool. It is called a cat’s tail; it doesn’t look like a real cat’s tail and this one is very beautiful and the colors are pink, blue, and lavender.


Apparently pen wipers were Hilda’s gift of choice. She wrote about making one in her January 11th entry. For a video about modern “spool knitting,” which is also known as “corking.”

In Before 1919 Tags San Francisco, Hilda

April 8, 1912

April 8, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

On Monday mornings the whole school must go to the auditorium and sing ugly songs. The ugliest of all is “The Star Spangled Banner.” It has notes that no one can reach, not even the principal who has a very nice voice and you can hear him over all ours and the other teachers’ voices too whenever we sing. I don’t like national songs so much and I don’t like flags either. Every morning we must salute the flag and then put our hand over on our forehead like soldiers do and say a piece about being true to our country. I do it but I do not like it. I don’t really understand it all or why? Anyway, my favorite songs are in German and Grandfather sings them. One is called “Die Lorelei.” She is a mermaid who stands on a rock in the middle of a river and combs her hair. Only I don’t see how she can stand up on a tail. Also, it isn’t very polite of her to comb her hair in public, I am never allowed to come out of my room until my hair is combed.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco, Music

April 7, 1912

April 7, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Today is Sunday and we had company, but I didn’t have to play the piano or recite because grandmother wanted to show off the new doll and have her sing. Grandmother named the doll “Tetrazzini.” Madame Tetrazzini is in the opera and she sings with a flute to accompany her. I heard about it because Grandmother once made Grandfather take her to the Tivoli Opera House to hear Madame Tetrazzini sing in an opera called “Lucia.” There is a special scene in it called the mad scene and Grandmother was talking about it to the company and Grandfather said in a loud voice, “Lucia isn’t the only one who is mad. There are a few others living in this house.” Everyone laughed but Grandmother didn’t and I know she was angry.


Luisa Tetrazzini was a famous opera singer who made her U.S. debut in San Francisco in January 1905. The town went wild for her, particularly her singing of the mad scene from Lucia di Lammermoor. She was so popular that she returned in the fall of 1905.

San Francisco Chronicle January 18, 1905

San Francisco Chronicle November 6, 1905

Tetrazzini returned to San Francisco several times, including in 1910, but not at the Tivoli Opera House which had been destroyed in the 1906 earthquake and not rebuilt until 1913. She loved San Francisco as much as San Francisco loved her, and she gave a free Christmas Eve concert in 1910 to thank residents for their support and to provide a morale boost to a town still recovering from the devastation of the earthquake and fire. Tetrazzini must have been fresh on their minds because a memorial plaque was unveiled on March 24, 1912, just two weeks before Hilda wrote this entry.

Plaque at Lotta’s fountain courtesy of SAN FRANCISCO HISTORY CENTER, SAN FRANCISCO PUBLIC LIBRARY (according to SFPL digital photos: "Bas. relief portrait of Luisa Tetrazzini by Haig Patigian added to Lotta's Fountain in memory of event in which Tetrazzini sang 'The Last Rose of Summer' beside the fountain Christmas Eve 1910.")

Photo courtesy of SAN FRANCISCO HISTORY CENTER, SAN FRANCISCO PUBLIC LIBRARY

Lotta’s fountain, present day. Plaque at top.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco, Music

April 6, 1912

April 6, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Everyone buys me dolls because they feel so sorry that I have no mother. I think that is a silly reason to buy a doll for me besides I hate dolls. Yesterday Grandmother bought me a big one. She has a little phonograph in her stomach and you put a little record into it and then you are to pretend the doll is singing. The songs are not pretty and the voice of the doll is ugly.


I really wanted a “Chatty Cathy” doll in the 1960s. It seemed like the most wonderful and modern invention. Who knew that talking dolls had been around for decades?!

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

April 5, 1912

April 5, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

I now have a darling puppy and he is all my own. He’s a little Cocker Spaniel, and I call him Brownie just because he is all brown. He is a present from my Uncle Milton. Uncle Milton is my favorite Uncle. He loves all kinds of animals, birds, and bugs and I do too.


I didn’t have a date for Hilda’s photo. It appears to have been taken in 1912, at the same time that she was writing her diary - we met Brownie before knowing who he was!

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

April 4, 1912

April 4, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

I haven’t written in this book for three weeks because I have been sick, but I don’t remember getting sick. It was after seeing the moving picture. They told me that I woke up in the middle of the night screaming and talking about knives and crowds of angry people and drums and blood. Grandmother had to call the doctor to give me something to make me stop screaming. But now I am glad I was sick because Sancha is gone. They know all about the butcher shop and the moving picture and I am not going to have a nurse again until Alma comes back.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

March 14, 1912

March 14, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Today Sancha didn’t take me to the butcher shop, she took me to a moving picture theater. It was so dreadful and I am afraid to go to bed tonight. In the picture show was a little, ugly man sitting in a bathtub and a woman came in with a long knife and she stuck it into him. Then there were millions of people around a platform and men on horseback and more men with drums. Then someone dragged in the woman who had killed the man in the bath tub. They put her up on the platform and then tied her to a board and then I saw that there was a long knife hanging over her head and I closed my eyes but I could hear the loud roll on the drums. Finally when I opened my eyes, I saw someone holding the woman’s head up by her hair and it was just terrible, terrible, too terrible!


I could not find the movie Hilda went to see. It sounds like it was about the French Revolution and the death of Marat at the hands of Charlotte Corday.


On this cliffhanger, Hilda stops writing in her diary for a few weeks, and we won’t hear from her again until April 4.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

March 13, 1912

March 13, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Every day is the same. Sancha calls for me at school and takes me to the butcher shop. It is full of horrible bloody cows cut in half and hanging from the ceiling on big hooks. Sancha puts me on a stool and gives me books to look at then she goes upstairs with the young man. When we leave, we go over to the park for a few minutes so if Grandmother asks me if we had been to the park, I can say yes, and everyday Sancha tells me that if I ever say where I was, they will cut me in half just like those cows and hang me from the ceiling. Of course I don’t think they would but just the same I am afraid to tell.

Undated photo of the Marion Silva Meat Department at the Crystal Palace Market, courtesy of the SAN FRANCISCO HISTORY CENTER, SAN FRANCISCO PUBLIC LIBRARY


In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

March 12, 1912

March 12, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

I can’t do arithmetic. Sancha tries to help me when I am at home but she can’t do it either. Grandfather always starts to help me but then I beg him to sing German songs to me instead and at first he says he won’t. He tells me that certain hours are for work, and certain ones for singing and this was still a working hour but he always ends up doing it and I know the words to some of the songs and we end up singing together. Arithmetic is so difficult and I have silly problems like Farmer Brown’s cow gives one gallon of milk and Farmer White’s cat had eight kittens so how long does it take Farmer Green’s chickens to lay a hundred eggs a day and how long is Farmer Black’s fence? Why all these farmers?

As I read today’s entry, I like to think that Hilda and her grandfather are singing songs from the book my grandmother sent her from Vienna when Hilda was a child. Hilda mentions this book in a 1946 letter to Helene.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco, Helene, Music

March 11, 1912

March 11, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Suzanne was here for lunch today and she told me a big secret. She told me she was going to marry Mr. Leonard. I’m ever so pleased and now I can tell Tante Esther that because once I heard Tante Esther say that Suzanne will never get married. That married men don’t marry girls like that. I don’t know why not? Suzanne is so beautiful and a prima ballerina and Tante Esther is ugly and old and blind but she had a husband. Maybe he was blind too.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

March 10, 1912

March 10, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

The Ballet was wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, and we came home so late that I don’t have to go to Sunday School today. The Ballet was just like Fairy Land. We all went together, Grandmother, Grandfather, Aunt Tillie, and I, and we sat close to the stage with the same two patent leather men who had come to dinner that night with Suzanne. They brought me flowers too, just like Aunt Tillie’s. Hers are small red roses and mine are tiny pink roses tied with a lovely blue ribbon. They are called corsages and we pinned them to our muffs. All the ladies looked so beautiful and the lights were so gay and bright and the men were so handsome and it was so much fun just to watch the musicians come into the pit. They call it a pit because it is deep down under the stage. It looks a little like a bear’s den. When the musicians started to tune their instruments it sounded very scratchy but very exciting because you knew that the scratching was going to stop and some beautiful sounds would come and they did. The lights dimmed, and then it got very dark. It really got black and then the curtain went up. First there was just the beautiful music in the darkness and you couldn’t see anything at all. Then it got a tiny bit lighter but I still couldn’t find Suzanne. All I could see on the stage were millions of slaves and they were wearing beautiful gold and silver clothes and their heads were bound in turbans and I knew they were turbans because Aunt Tillie had one that she wore last winter. Hers of courses didn’t have gold, silver, and diamonds sewn in it like these. All the time I was watching, I heard the music getting big and exciting and sometimes a little sad. Then it became lighter and you could see lots of colors and then everyone on the stage began to dance. They danced with wonderful baskets of fruit and flowers with cages of golden birds and turkeys and grapes on silver platters and jugs of wine. You couldn’t see that it was wine but I was sitting next to Grandfather and he said that it was meant to be wine. Some of them danced with boxes with strings of pearls spilling out of them or strings of rubies, diamonds, or emeralds. Then all of a sudden I saw a fat man lying on some pillows. This is the Sultan, and right next to him was Scheherazade, only it wasn’t Scheherazade, it was Suzanne, but it wasn’t really Suzanne either, it was Scheherazade. She was telling stories to the Sultan, but between the stories she danced. She danced alone and she danced with a beautiful prince and she danced with all the slaves and she wanted the Sultan to dance but he wouldn’t. Maybe he couldn’t because he was so fat. Suzanne looked like an angel. Her dress was all gold and silver and diamonds and pearls and she had diamonds and pearls in her hair. In the middle of all the dancing, the curtains came together again and the lights went on and I was afraid that was the end but Grandfather said no, it was only the first act and there would be two more whole acts to follow. And then he took me outside to a little dining room and we all sat at a little table and ate chicken sandwiches. I had hot chocolate and the grown-ups had coffee. The bell rang and we went back to our seats. I don’t remember too much about the rest of the Ballet. I must have fallen asleep, but I woke up before it ended. Everyone was clapping, and everyone on the stage was in front of the curtain, and Suzanne’s arms were full of flowers. She and the others were bowing. In fact I as wide awake and I wanted to go to the restaurant with Aunt Tillie and Suzanne and Mr. Ralph and Mr. Leonard. I’ve never been to that kind of restaurant, the kind where ladies and gentlemen go after the theater at night. Grandfather said that in just ten years more I can go. Then Mr. Leonard said, “Never mind, Hilda, you know I am waiting for you until you grow up.” So I went home in the carriage with Grandmother and Grandfather.


Although I could not find any photos or articles about this production or about Tillie’s friend Suzanne, the following links to the Jerome Robbins Dance Division, The New York Public Library. "Gertrude Hoffmann in Scheherazade" The New York Public Library Digital Collections. 1911 - 1912 take you to photos of Gertrude Hoffman in the title role from the same era.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco, Music

March 9, 1912

March 9, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

This morning Aunt Tillie said that to punish me for liking dogs and cats better than babies they were not going to take me to Suzanne’s ballet tonight. I started to cry and stamp my feet and I said that dogs and cats were not only nicer than babies they were nicer than people and that no dog or cat would make me stay home from the ballet. So I was locked in my room but when Grandfather came home, he came right upstairs and when I told him what was the matter he said, “Kindchen, if you don’t go to the ballet I won’t go either.” So, I guess I’m going. Then Grandmother came upstairs and said that if I wanted to go out tonight I must stay in my bed and rest and I mustn’t write any more in this book because she doesn’t want any ink on the sheets. So I must stop now.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

March 8, 1912

March 8, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Everyone is angry at me today except Grandfather. Just because I said that cats and dogs are better than babies. But it is true to me. Why are grown-ups always telling you to be truthful and when you are, they get mad at you? Aunt Minnie was here this afternoon. She is the daughter that Tante Esther is living with and she has a darling Collie named Bonnie. They both came here for tea and while we were having it, I held out my piece of buttered toast so that Bonnie could take a bite and she did take a big bite and then I took a bite and everyone yelled at me not to ever do that. They said it was dirty but I said that Bonnie’s mouth was much cleaner than Uncle Felix’s pockets, and I had to eat dirty old peppermints out of those and then I got very mad and said all the animals I know are much nicer than the people I know and that Bonnie and Sherry are much nicer than all the babies in the world, even Helen Violet. So then I was sent from the table but I took Bonnie with me, so I didn’t care.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

March 7, 1912

March 7, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

I had a lovely time this afternoon. I went around the corner to visit Grandma Uri. She is Grandmother’s best friend. She is very old and she always wears a bonnet in the house. She can’t hear very well so she holds a funny trumpet to her ear and when you talk to her you sort of blow into it. She always sits in a big chair by the window in her bedroom and tells us stories about the people she sees through it who are walking on the street. She has a basket of sewing next to her. The basket is made of little pockets and the pockets are full of lovely things she has sewn and other surprises. Sometimes little cookies shaped like hearts or little jelly beans or cinnamon candies that burn just a bit. Grandma Uri always asks, “Were you a good girl this week, Hilda?”, and when I blow “Yes” into her horn, she says, “I know you were. Look into the pockets of my basket and maybe you will find a surprise.” On Christmas and birthdays there are wonderful surprises. Once I found a pearl bracelet and once there was a five dollar gold piece and once the lovelies pink and gold thimble. This afternoon she let me go downstairs and help Louie bake cookies. He gave me a piece of dough all for myself and showed me how to cut out a man and make him handsome with little raisins for eyes and tiny pieces of walnuts for buttons on his coat. I love Louie. I don’t know why I am so frightened of the picture of the Chinese men as Louis is Chinese. I have always known him and loved him. Grandfather says that I must learn that all people are the same inside their skin. That all people love their own children and their own friends and all they want is to be happy and peaceful in their own homes. And then he said that all people are very unhappy when their children lose their tempers and stamp their feet and yell.


Reading of Hilda’s grandfather reminds me of my grandmother’s stories about her own father who was Hilda’s grandfather’s brother. Both men sound incredibly kind and believed in the best in people. They taught their children tolerance and respect for others. Helene’s father published a newspaper in their small town in order to expose corruption and give voice to the voiceless, teaching his daughter values that she carried with her throughout her life.

If only the world had progressed further in the last 110 years!

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, Helene, San Francisco, Bilin

March 6, 1912

March 6, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

When Sancha called for me after school today, we didn’t go to the park or the beach, we went to a butcher shop. I thought that perhaps Grandmother had sent us there to buy something but we didn’t buy anything at all. There was a young man there who talked to her for a long time and then he asked me if I wouldn’t like to go out and have some ice cream. I didn’t like this man’s face but I thought that while I was eating the ice cream I wouldn’t have to look at it so I said, “Yes thank you.” So then we went to a little ice cream shop on the corner and the man let me order any flavor I wanted. I took strawberry, because I’m not supposed to eat strawberries and things always taste much better when you aren’t supposed to have them. When we left the place we could see a park just a block away and Sancha said, “Now we are going to the park for a little while, and when your Grandmother asks you if you have been to the park, you can say yes! You must not tell her about the butcher shop, or the ice cream.” When we got home, Grandmother did ask me if we had been to the park and I said yes but I didn’t tell her anything else but I felt funny, as if I should have.


In the stories my grandmother wrote about her childhood in a small town in Bohemia in the 1890’s, she told of similar experiences to those of Hilda. The family maid took Helene out for errands and excursions, which often included their running into her boyfriend. Taking the child under your care for an outing was always a good cover for romantic liaisons!

It was far more obvious where one’s meat came from in Hilda’s day. Below is a photo of Palace Market from around 1900. The source of one’s food was direct and obvious into at least the early 1960s: when I was very young, there was a poultry shop across the street from our house (and from the Surf Theatre) in the Sunset district — the only distinct memory I have of it was the feathers all over the floor. After the shop closed, the space was used for a nursery school.

OpenSFHistory / wnp37.00180

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco, Helene, Bilin

March 5, 1912

March 5, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Sancha took me to Alma. She is in a big hospital full of nurses, only the nurses are nuns too. She was sitting up in a little white bed with a cross hanging over it and she was so happy when I came in. She made a fuss over the daisies I brought her. She said we would have a party right there in the hospital and she called one of the nurses and ordered ice cream. The nurse brought us ice cream right away. Alma forgot to ask me if I did anything nice. I am glad she forgot to ask because I can’t think of anything that I did that was especially nice.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

March 4, 1912

March 4, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

After school today, Grandmother called for me and took me downtown with her. She said that if I behaved like a lady she would let me have my hair washed in a real beauty parlor where grown ladies go. I was very glad because at home I have to lean over the wash basin and all the soap runs into my eyes and burns them. After my hair was washed we went to the “Pig ‘n Whistle.” It is a very nice restaurant. There is a picture on the menu of a happy pig dancing while playing a flute. We go there often when we go downtown as Grandfather’s company supplies them with fruits and vegetables. The manager of the restaurant knows who Grandmother is and he makes a fuss over her and I know she likes that. Grandmother ordered coffee and cakes and milk for me. Grandmother was sweet to me and it was a pleasant afternoon. I almost forgave her for the other horrid times.


Hilda’s grandfather worked with the A. Levy and J. Zentner produce company which was mentioned in earlier blog posts, including the one from February 9, 2021 — I originally thought that he was the “A” of “A. Levy.” However, it appears that although they shared the same first name, they were probably cousins.

The Pig ‘n Whistle was a small chain of sweet shops that started in Los Angeles or San Francisco. It sounds like the See’s Candy of its day. A want ad in the December 16, 1915 San Francisco Examiner said:

“First class candy saleslady. Apply PIG’N WHISTLE. 130 Post St.”

Ad from the July 30, 1910 edition of the San Francisco Examiner

Ad from the August 15, 1910 edition of the San Francisco Examiner

A sign for a Pig ‘n Whistle Cafe in San Francisco from 1960.


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March 3, 1912

March 3, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Sunday again, and all the relatives that I have to be polite to are visiting. It is really Grandfather’s fault because he sent them all tickets to come to America, except Aunt Esther’s ticket, as she was here already.


Reading this post makes me think about what might have been. Hilda’s grandfather was my grandmother’s uncle (see family tree) - was she offered a chance to come to America long before she was married and had children?

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, Helene, San Francisco

March 2, 1912

March 2, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Suzanne was here again and stayed for lunch but she left right afterwards. She said that she had to hurry to a rehearsal. She is dancing in the real performance on the ninth of this month, just a week from tonight. The family is going and Grandmother says that if I am good they will take me too. I told Suzanne that she shouldn’t have to hurry away because Aunt Tillie says that she is “fast,” and why was she in such a hurry. Whatever I said, I somehow made Suzanne cry and Grandmother told me to leave the room and told me I was very rude. Why? Was I rude? I just didn’t want her to feel that she had to hurry or be fast and stay here as I love having her here. Grandmother said the “little pitchers have big ears,” and I wasn’t supposed to repeat everything I heard.

In Before 1919 Tags Hilda, San Francisco

March 1, 1912

March 1, 2022 Helen Goldsmith

From 8-year old Hilda’s diary:

Suzanne came to see us this morning and stayed for coffee and ate lots of coffee cake. She was so happy. It seems the principal dancer in her ballet company died last night and now she is going to have her part in the new ballet and be the “Prima Ballerina.”


So far I have been unable to find information about Suzanne or the ballet company she was in. Perhaps someday the answer will make itself known!

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